“Sometimes it feels like, I’m gonna break
Sometimes this world, gives more than I can take
Sometimes, sunshine gets lost in the rain
And it keeps pouring down
It just keeps coming down.
This life would kill me if I didn’t have you…”
–Thompson Square, “If I Didn’t Have You”
This month has been exceptionally tough for me. It began with my roommate bullying me, calling me a slew of inappropriate names, making it difficult to be at home, let alone eat, think clearly, or be remotely happy. This started the apartment search, which began with me looking by myself for a place that, on my salary, would’ve been a shoebox…literally. This was stressful because I didn’t want to share with too many people the difficulties I was having, so I was working solo on finding a place and no realtor was willing to work with me at my price range. Thankfully, my lovely friend Katie volunteered to be my roomie, but even then, searching for places, talking to a million landlords/realtors, and spending several nights a week visiting everything from downright dumps to terrible neighborhoods to apartments with bedrooms the size of a closet was time-consuming and frustrating. The month ended with a 13% staff layoff in my company. Last Monday morning, we were told that multiple of us would lose our jobs; this set off a tizzy of freaking out situations throughout the following week. Fortunately, I still have a job, but my boss decided to retire early and around 30 of my coworkers were let go and asked to leave immediately. To say the least, my heart rate spiked entirely too many times this March and I was left with many sleepless nights.
Without a home to be comfortable in and with a job from which I had the possibility of being laid off, I could’ve lost my mind this month, but many people stepped up in my life to help take care of me, so this blog post is a big ol’ thank you!!! to these people:
Mom and Dad – Thank you for listening to me, sending me words of encouragement, and packing me to move for the 13th time in my adult life.
My new roomie, Katie – I’m so grateful it’s working out for us to live together! Not only will I feel comfortable in our new home, but we’re going to have so much fun!
Kira – I appreciate so much the opportunity to hide out at your house on several occasions, namely the day my roommate lashed out on me and the evening when potential roommates came to view my bedroom. You’ve let me talk for hours, so thank you for listening and always giving great advice!
Mario – I feel very lucky to have you in my life this month. Having a place to hide away during the crazy times and a person to not only let me vent, but to make me happy has been paramount in me getting through this month. Thank you!
My many other friends, coworkers, and family – Thanks for all of the words of support; knowing I’m not alone made me feel so much better. I can’t name you all, but I do appreciate it all.
In 5 days, I’ll be completely moved out of my apartment and I luckily still have a job that I enjoy going to each and every day. My situation is getting easier and I look forward to the possibilities ahead!